Monday, January 6, 2025

Crap Shots 6 (2024)




Give me the unadorned Christ. 
    The Logos; undiluted and pure. 
For nothing else can quench my sin; the weakness I see 
looking back in the mirror every day.
Give me my King; who reigns over the church 
for his glory, her benefit, and through whom will the nations learn to bow in subjection. 
Give me the word; 
for he teaches, admonishes, loves, 
and shows how to pray and is our praise. 
Give me my beloved; for he died and lives for me 
though it was me, the whore, who made death necessary.
Give me nothing else 
than the resurrected Jesus; 
for anything less is but my unbelief.  




“Sin by its very nature is more often quiet and secretive than loud and public. For every overt episode of rage, there are dozens of jealousies, manipulations, white lies, and malicious thoughts, none of which immediately register on the conscience. And, according to Scripture, the greatest sin of all is even more covert: I do not love the Lord my God with my whole mind and heart. If our failure to consistently worship the true God is the key feature of sin, we are sinners all.”
― Edward T. Welch,  Addictions: A Banquet in the Grave (2001)







“It is better to be unhappy and know the worst, than to be happy in a fool's paradise.”
― Fyodor Dostoyevsky, The Idiot (1869)




"Upon the whole I conclude, that the Presbyterian Government is of divine institution. Their Articles of Faith taught by the Scripture, and believed by the Catholic Church. Their worship pure and perfect in all essentials. And their spirit and practice [is] at least as becoming the gospel as that of their neighbours" - Thomas Rhind, A Defense of the Church-Government, Faith, Worship, and Spirit, of the Presbyterians (1820)




“The love of the world cannot be expunged by a mere demonstration of the world’s worthlessness. But may it not be supplanted by the love of that which is more worthy than itself?”
― Thomas Chalmers, The Expulsive Power of a New Affection (1815)



“Theology masters the man; the man is never to master the theology.”
― Carl R. Trueman, Luther on the Christian Life: Cross and Freedom (2015)



“He was so far from being able to carry out such threats that one might conclude that the author of this document was utterly mad. Indeed, the man in the cave had entered a separate reality, one that was deeply connected to the mythic chords of Muslim identity and in fact gestured to anyone whose culture was threatened by modernity and impurity and the loss of tradition. By declaring war on the United States from a cave in Afghanistan, bin Laden assumed the role of an uncorrupted, indomitable primitive standing against the awesome power of the secular, scientific, technological Goliath; he was fighting modernity itself.”
― Lawrence Wright, The Looming Tower (2006)



“You can’t always understand something just because you did it.”
― Stephen King, Roadwork (1981)


“Probably it is true enough that the great majority are rarely capable of thinking independently, that on most questions they accept views which they find ready-made, and that they will be equally content if born or coaxed into one set of beliefs or another. In any society freedom of thought will probably be of direct significance only for a small minority. But this does not mean that anyone is competent, or ought to have power, to select those to whom this freedom is to be reserved. It certainly does not justify the presumption of any group of people to claim the right to determine what people ought to think or believe.”
― Friedrich August von Hayek, The Road to Serfdom (1944)




“Words and actions are transient things, and being once past, are nothing; but the effect of them on an immortal soul may be endless.”
― Richard Baxter, Dying Thoughts (1683)



“Psychopaths don't act like Hannibal Lecter or Norman Bates. They come off like Hugh Grant, in his most adorable role.”
― Dave Cullen, Columbine (2009)


“The longer you went without speaking, the harder it gets to break the silence.”
― Stephen King, The Long Walk (1978)



 ''Suppose it be true that devotion to a creed is a sign of narrowness or intolerance, suppose the Church ought to be founded upon devotion to the ideal of Jesus or upon the desire to put His spirit into operation in the world, and not at all upon a confession of faith with regard to His redeeming work. Even if all this were true, even if a creedal Church were an undesirable thing, it would still remain true that as a matter of fact many (indeed in spirit really all) evangelical churches are creedal churches, and that if a man does not accept their
creed he has no right to a place in their teaching ministry'' 
- J. Gresham Machen, Christianity and Liberalism (1922)


“Christ had a Church in the world before there was either Apostle, or Prophet, or Evangelist, or Pastor, or Teacher, and He will have His Church around Him through eternal ages, after all His saints are gathered and perfected, and when oracles, ordinances and ministry shall have fulfilled their work.”

― James Henley Thornwell, The Collected Writings of James Henley Thornwell (1871)



“The basic duties of the husband were to provide for the welfare of his wife and children, to protect his household from any who would harm it, and to rule over his family and servants with a firm but just hand.. 'Above all, the husband was supposed to rule. He alone was master of his house, the one on whom all domestic discipline and order finally depended.' However, the wife 'was no maid or common servant of her husband,' but the husband was 'father of the house,' and his wife 'mother of the house'—'a position of high authority and equal respect.''

― Zachary M. Garris, Honor Thy Fathers: Recovering the Anti-Feminist Theology of the Reformers (2024)



TO THE PÆDAGOGUS.

Teacher, to Thee a chaplet I present,
Woven of words culled from the spotless mead,
Where Thou dost feed Thy flocks; like to the bee,
That skilful worker, which from many a flower
Gathers its treasures, that she may convey
A luscious offering to the master’s hand.
Though but the least, I am Thy servant still,
(Seemly is praise to Thee for Thy behests).
O King, great Giver of good gifts to men,
Lord of the good, Father, of all the Maker,
Who heaven and heaven’s adornment, by Thy word
Divine fitly disposed, alone didst make;
Who broughtest forth the sunshine and the day;
Who didst appoint their courses to the stars,
And how the earth and sea their place should keep;
And when the seasons, in their circling course,
Winter and summer, spring and autumn, each
Should come, according to well-ordered plan;
Out of a confused heap who didst create
This ordered sphere, and from the shapeless mass
Of matter didst the universe adorn;—
Grant to me life, and be that life well spent,
Thy grace enjoying; let me act and speak
In all things as Thy Holy Scriptures teach;
Thee and Thy co-eternal Word, All-wise,
From Thee proceeding, ever may I praise;
Give me nor poverty nor wealth, but what is meet,
Father, in life, and then life’s happy close.

(Clement of Alexandria, The Instructor, 198 AD)



Wednesday, December 25, 2024

All Feelings

''And ye shall be holy unto me: for I the Lord am holy, and have severed you from other people, that ye should be mine'' - Leviticus 20:26




Tuesday, December 24, 2024

Billions Must Give Praise To The Lord

"All nations whom thou hast made shall come and worship before thee, O Lord; and shall glorify thy name" - Psalms 86:9


Friday, December 13, 2024

King of the Cul-De-Sac



Day dreams of the rural Midwest, dreams of nowhere; broken sidewalks and high school queenies.


Faded cigarette packages along the side of the road; thrown away piles in the woods. 


Stale cigarette smoke in the church parking lot. 


Wood panel Chevy Astros and restaurants where everyone knows yr name.


Self martyrdom in the bar bathroom; muggy nights w/ the crickets in yr ears. 


Used cans of chew w/ beads on the car seats; the orange florescent light in the apartment hallway fading in a midwestern fire. 


Losers finishing last on a bet that left them behind. 


A southern rapture; the faded painted mural behind the withered pulpit. 


Rivers of grace forever flowing in barren lands; the concrete itself cries out in anguish. 


A sabbath eternal, creation renewal; all quiet in the land of dust.     


''For we know that the whole creation groaneth and travaileth in pain together until now. 

And not only they, but ourselves also, which have the firstfruits of the Spirit, even we ourselves groan within ourselves, waiting for the adoption, to wit, the redemption of our body'' 

- Romans 8:22-23

Thursday, December 12, 2024

Cheeto Fingers


Blinking red lights, 

empty cul de sacs; 

basketball nets sway in the cold night. 


Bars full of the tired, 

stringed lights wrapped around the buildings;

neon lights fading. 


Big empty living rooms illuminated with 3000 channels of nothing. 


Things that once was, 

now familiar, 

in a different light; 

shadowed by normalcy.  


Big empty schools and anxious nights,

the hallways are the mosaics of past lives, 

sitting aside the dark and watching the outside; 

neighborhoods you've never been and some that feel like another life time. 


I took a left, 

turn around, 

in another direction, 

end up same place; 

different person.  


''Wherefore gird up the loins of your mind, be sober, and hope to the end for the grace that is to be brought unto you at the revelation of Jesus Christ; as obedient children, not fashioning yourselves according to the former lusts in your ignorance: but as he which hath called you is holy, so be ye holy in all manner of conversation; because it is written, Be ye holy; for I am holy'' - 1 Peter 1:13-16

Sunday, November 3, 2024

Quicken Me

''Quicken me, O Lord, for thy name's sake: for thy righteousness' sake bring my soul out of trouble'' - Ps 143:11

Faith repurposed and reorganized; methodized and euthanized.

'Keep Holy The Lord's Day' is written in judgement. 

The sluggards doze in a melancholic stupor, 

my soul aches in a new way; 

my heart among them.




Saturday, November 2, 2024

Another Morning

''If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just to forgive us our sins, and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness'' - I John 1:9


The summers of yesterday, drenched in sweat. 

Wondering in the dark, moonlight my vision, evil my works. 

Taking it out all around me; 

take another drink, smoke another one, sleep with someone.

Stumbling back to a locked rear door and sleeping outside in the frost.

Waking up to frozen dew stuck to the back of my clothes;

glimpses of side mirror memories. 

Another girl, another trip, another day; going nowhere.

Lured by demons left beside me, ignorant in my own faith; proud in my uncertainty.

Reorganized in Christ, light cast in, demons left behind; 

headlights bleeding through dark neighborhoods.

One more day, another chance to live for God; the whisky priest.

Sobering up, union with Christ; condemnation and grace.

I looked back in her eyes as I had the split decision;

God's deliverance, my humbling. 

Same choice, same presence, same responsibility; same grace.

Weary; rest in Christ.



“How often the priest had heard the same confession--Man was so limited: he hadn't even the ingenuity to invent a new vice: the animals knew as much. It was for this world that Christ had died: the more evil you saw and heard about you, the greater the glory lay around the death; it was too easy to die for what was good or beautiful, for home or children or civilization--it needed a God to die for the half-hearted and the corrupt.”

― Graham Greene, The Power and the Glory (1940)



Tuesday, September 17, 2024

When I'm Walking, I'm Talking

A dimly lit porch on a weirdly hot autumn night; empty places I’ve been

Trains cutting the silence of night and chugging along in the dark

Going for miles and disappearing

Lights trailing off

Hanging outside of buildings and outlines of shadows



The burning desire to feel its solitude

The bleak quiet beckoning

Just for some silence

An ethereal solitude

Driving aimlessly in the dark but I don’t know what for


A time of patience, wondering along sleepy houses, and alongside the restless

Thinking of being somewhere else even when I’m around others, where, I don’t know




The stars of yesterday, the thoughts of today; dreams in the heads of others

Heat of the day, cool of the night; clouds of tomorrow

The remnant of another’s thought

Anxieties of yesterday are a curious blot on a trivia card

The life of today taken for granted

Dreams of things no longer tangible to the recollection

Another momentary conversation


The silence forces me to look around and contemplate it’s wordless reproach

The death of a dream personified in our expectations and aspirations influenced by the flesh

We truly face ourselves when those expectations fail us

Our actions are a reflection of ourselves which we cannot deny

Enjoy life for God’s sake and ask nothing more out of it but ask that of God.





Be faithful; die forgotten to man but known to God


''Hope is a good thing, maybe the best of things, and no good thing ever dies’’ – The Shawshank Redemption (1994)


Tuesday, August 27, 2024

For Reasons I Cannot Explain


''I am following the river

Down the highway..







She comes back to tell me she's gone

As if I didn't know that

As if I didn't know my own bed

As if I'd never noticed

The way she brushed her hair from her forehead..



And she said losing love

Is like a window in your heart

Everybody sees you're blown apart

Everybody sees the wind blow..




And my traveling companions

Are ghosts and empty sockets

I'm looking at ghosts and empties..







For reasons I cannot explain

There's some part of me wants to see'' 


- Paul Simon, Graceland (1986)



 Draw nigh to God, and he will draw nigh to you. Cleanse your hands, ye sinners; and purify your hearts, ye double minded. - James 4:8

Tuesday, August 13, 2024

5 Reflections on Ecclesiastes

5 Reflections on Ecclesiastes [1]
by Christopher Keller 

1. Philosophy and its Limitations

The American Heritage dictionary [2] has a rather overly simplistic definition of “philosophy” as: “a basic theory of a particular subject” and in the pages of the book of Ecclesiastes we read of King Solomon, the third Israelite King, endowed with supernaturally gifted abilities of wisdom [3] (1 Kings ch 3), reflecting upon his own rule, under the divine inspiration of God, articulates a philosophy of human life.

This simple conception of philosophy is to be contrasted with the more precise, and perhaps more familiar, definition as a “speculative inquiry concerning the source and nature of human knowledge” [4]. To this end, Ecclesiastes exhausts the speculative and concludes that the objectivity of God and his character, as revealed in the scriptures (Eccl 1:13, 26, 3:13-17, 5:7, 6:2, 7:14, 18, 29, 8:12-17, 9:1, 11:5, 9, 12:7, and 13 [5]), is the true source and nature of not only human but all knowledge.

But more precisely, the philosophy of Ecclesiastes provides an objective ethic (or moral philosophy [6]) in The Summum Bonum, or “(Lat. for ‘highest good’), the ideal of human attainment” [7], as “Fear God, and keep his commandments: for this is the whole duty of man” (12:13).

The legitimacy of ascribing this particular ethical construct onto sacred scripture is considered by the learned Anglican divine Charles Bridges in the following: “[the main object of the book is] to bring out into clear view the chief good - the true happiness of man, in what it does not consist -not in the wisdom, pleasures, honours, and riches of the world - in what it does consist - the enjoyment and service of God..if we are living..in communion with Him, we shall realize this summum bonum..not including a particle of that which is worldly and carnal; but that which is holy, spiritual, and undefiled, and which in the writings of Solomon is but another word for religion” (Pg, XII-XIII) [8]. 

The first words of King Solomon, under the stylistic name of Qoheleth [9], is the repetitive thematic statement, describing the limitation of speculative inquiry and ethic outside of God, as “Vanity of Vanities” (v2).

In fact, the statement of “Vanity of Vanities” begins a poetic like diatribe of the limitations of humanity and its pursuit of the Summum outside of God; considering such things as labor (1:3-11), knowledge (1:13-18), pleasure (2:1-10), human frailty (3:18-21), oppression (4:1-3), envy (4:4), laziness (4:5), solitude (4:7-8), community (4:9-12), government (4:13-16), profit (5:9-17), desire (6:7-9), and ambition (6:10-12). The conclusion remains the same: “vanity and vexation of spirit” (2:26, 4:16, 6:9) and a final considering refrain of “Vanity of Vanities” (12:8).

Commenting on verse two of the first chapter, Charles Bridges notes: “repeatedly does Solomon remind us that the blessings of the creature, when used for the Glory of God, are lawful in themselves..but here lies the evil. Man buries his heart in their Vanity. He makes them his chief good” (pg 7).

Bridges on verse ten of the first chapter: “Look again at man in all his pleasures, pursuits, and changes of life. His intellect may be gratified, and his appetite for novelty supplied, in the multiplied new openings of science. But no new springs of vital happiness are opened to him. He is as far as ever from true rest. Our disappointed forefathers in bygone days never found it. We shall leave it to our children - a world of vexation [and]..shadow” (Pg 15).

In verses thirteen to eighteen of the first chapter, Solomon pointedly describes the limitation of inquiry: “I gave my heart to seek and search out by wisdom concerning all things that are done under heaven” (v13). “I communed with my mine own heart, saying, Lo, I am come to great estate, and have gotten more wisdom than all they that have been before me..yea, my heart had great experience of wisdom and knowledge” (v16).
His conclusion reads thus: “and I gave my heart to know wisdom, and to know madness and folly: I perceived that this also is vexation of spirit. For in much wisdom is much grief: and he that increaseth knowledge increaseth sorrow” (v17ff).

“[Solomon] sought to know wisdom as the rest of man - thus putting the gift in the place of the Giver. His range of inquiries reached to the opposite quarter..as if the knowledge of contraries would clear his mind…this path of wandering could only issue in the sober certainty of grief and sorrow..the soul that had wandered from God will search heaven and earth in vain for rest” (Bridges, pg 23)

After comparing and contrasting the limitations of inquiry and wisdom (2:12-16), Solomon thus turns towards hatred of life itself, hating these efforts, to only then realize that the efforts and their benefits, yet limited and temporal, are but a gift of God (2:17-26). It is when human efforts and benefits are seen for what they are, divinely given temporal gifts and not ends in of themselves, that they can be properly understood.

This hatred of life itself is often an inescapable result of the course of philosophy, as an intellectual discipline, seen practiced in the West; even the question determining the meaning of life has been reformulated from “what is most good?” to “what is meaning?” [10]. This is typically answered either in the negative or pursuing an inventive measure of wisdom and folly as a way to escape reason and experience.

Most importantly, and as Ecclesiastes shows, is that If these questions are attempted by the mere human (naturalism) rationalistic to sensualistic formulations then they have left us nothing but a redressing of Solomon's “Vanities” (1:10); for if they truly begin and end with ourselves, we are left with nothing but ourselves [11].

2. Life's Seasons: 

In chapter three, verses one to eight, we get a scope of experienced life in this world; expressed as different seasons. Just as our surroundings ebb and flow with the year, so do our circumstances, yet they have a harmony directed to them by God himself.

“All is constant motion. And yet all these fluctuations are under absolute control. It is not a world of chance, or of fate. All events..all those voluntary actions, that seem to be in our own power, with their remotest contingencies - are overruled..a predetermined purpose, on which..everything depends. Of this purpose we know nothing” (Bridges, pg 48).

In verse eleven, there is a reason provided, to the illusive and transitory nature of time on this earth, as simply to be made as fitting, and so that no man may not only grasp this providence of God (aptly labeled “beautiful”) but be vexed and be distracted by this present temporary nature of life.

“Everything is suited to its appointed use and service..even evil, though in itself most revolting, yet by a wise exercise of Omnipotence, is overruled for good, and exhibits the beauty of Divine workmanship..He has put [into man] a vast desire to study..except that the field is so wide - the capacity so limited - life so short - our knowledge of the past so imperfect…much of [man's] work is begun in one age, and finished in another. [This is] necessarily imperfect…but when one part is compared with another -when..God's work is viewed as a whole - all is beauty and order” (Bridges, pg 67-68).

3. Nostalgia Considered

Coupled with the previous thought is the one expressed in the tenth verse, of the seventh chapter, of the book. It's context is a series of Proverbs as applied to life in an temporal world. Yes, it is vain and inescapable, if it is treated as a pursuit of temporal ends, but its reality continues to be tensioned by the reality of God.

The previous three verses establishes that times of oppression often drives the wise to madness and impatientence; the end is valued more than the beginning.

This is seen as the same as valuing patience over haste, for haste often leads to anger, and anger is the characteristic of the fool; thus, in the tenth verse, to look back and conclude that the beginning was better, the good old days, than now, is to value what was once the source of madness and such is the essence of nostalgia.

“Present days are a felt reality. Under the pressure [of them] it is natural [to believe this]...the eras of civilization, and extended religion, are better than the barbarous and unlightened ages. This would suggest the legitimate application of the enquiry. But [this] rebuke is evidently directed against that dissatisfied spirit, which puts aside our present blessings, exaggerates our evils, and reflects upon the government of God as full of inequalities, and upon his providence, in having cast us in such evil times” (Bridges, pg 149).

4. Limitations of Wisdom 

Continuing in chapter seven, particularly verses fifteen through eighteen, amongst Solomon's discourse of the continued virtues of wisdom, he, in an expression of astonishment (v15), notes that righteousness does not always preserve, think ahead, nor does evil always limit one's lifetime.

From this, he goes on to give forth the following wisdom: avoid being overly scrupulous nor consider yourself overly wise - that this has a high potential to ruin oneself - having vices and acting foolish is to be avoided as well - this has the potential to quickly end your life - and finally, that grasping the limitations of wisdom is a good thing, worth holding as a principle; for to fear God is to balance these things.

“[Here is a] caution against ‘the vain affectation of [righteousness]’...religion [being] made to consist mainly in externals..Christian duties are pressed beyond their due proportion, interfering with immediate obligations, and making sins where God has not made them. Scrupulosity in matters indifferent takes the place of the free obedience of the Gospel…[overdoing is] superstition..’[a] misdirection of [godliness] - the exhausting of it in the vanity of man's devising’..our religion should be reasonable, consistent, uniform - not a matter of opinion, but of the heart” (Bridges, pg 164)

“Avoid all..high pretentions to superior wisdom. Guard against that opinionative confidence, which seems to lay down the law, and critically finds fault with every judgment differing from our own” (Bridges, pg 164)

“Never be satisfied with the standard of the world. Press onward in the path of the Bible..never shrink from the confession of principle. But do not court needless offense..any other religion is..cold..we must fully acknowledge the scriptural standard - religion of works, as well as words. It is fearful hypocrisy to profess the Gospel, and yet to restrain the full allegiance which our Divine Master claims at our hands; to seek a private walk, instead of the broad manifestation of godly exercise” (Bridges, pg 167).

5. The Guiding Principles of the Wise 

As for my last point, I will be considering the last four verses of chapter twelve; the last chapter in the book of Ecclesiastes. King Solomon, as Qoheleth, gives some final principles that characterize the wise: wise words are to be treated as securities given by many leaders under the direction of one shepherd, book making never ends and much study brings weariness, and gives the summary principle of the entire book; fearing God and keeping his commandments is the whole duty of man and that God will judge everything done, whether it was secret, good, or evil.

“The Prophets - Apostles - Preachers - Ministers of all ages..are separated as the Masters of assemblies..and upholding the visible glory of the Great Head and King [Jesus] in his Church..all acting by his Authority..all, serving in dependence upon his promised grace and blessings..Let me bow to their authority with the reverence of undisputing faith, and with the grateful acknowledgement of ready and unreserved obedience. Let the Bible satisfy me in all my disputations” (Bridges, pg 307).

“The mass of books accumulating is the best comment upon this verse. How many of them are utterly worthless! How small a proportion even of what is valuable can be read by one man! How many, written with much labor, are, probably, never read at all!” (Bridges, pg 308).

“These two points [Fear God and keep His commandments] - the Preacher pronounces to contain the whole duty of man - not his duty only - but his whole happiness and business - the total sum of all that concerns him - all that God requires of him - all that the Saviour enjoined - all that the Holy Spirit teaches and works in him…[Ecclesiastes] naturally ends with the winding up of our eventful history - the eternal destiny of every child of man. How solemn the stamp that it will give to..the blessedness of the fear and service of God! The day will unmask all. All things - now so inexplicable shall be made plain” (Bridges, pg 312).

Conclusion
 
“Beware lest any man spoil you through philosophy and vain deceit, after the tradition of men, after the rudiments of the world, and not after Christ” - Colossians 2:8 

After reading through the Biblical text of Ecclesiastes; I have found myself humbled. I've articulated this as left feeling “dumb” and by that I mean my mouth has been “stopped” (Rom 3:19). Like Solomon, I have found myself wandering from opinion to opinion, philosophy to philosophy; but the difference being that of knowing more madness and folly than wisdom (Eccl 1:17). I spend most of my time researching and learning to only find that I know less than when I started (Eccl 1:18). I have set my heart on aesthetics only to find it empty (2:1-11).

Simply put; I recognize the vanity as my own. To read through this, and recognize this same process, and then, to see it all around me, makes one begin to grasp its meaning. To realize and recognize the depth of our need in our very own thinking; to renew our mind from worldliness or obscuring the mercies of Christ (Rom 12:1-3). To “Fear God and keep His commandments” is to recognize our inability to do so apart from Christ (Rom 3:20-26) and thus walk in faith; walk in wisdom (Rom 7:25, Eph 2:8-10).

“Some of [Ecclesiastes'] maxims have indeed been too hastily supposed to countenance Epicurean indulgence. Nay - even Voltaire..[has] desired to claim detached passages as favoring [his] skeptical philosophy. But ‘all of them’ - as Mr Scott observes - ‘admit of a sound and useful interpretation, when accurately investigated, and when the general scope of the book is attended to’..It is most important to study the Bible in the spirit of the Bible - to exercise a critical habit in a spiritual atmosphere..

Prayer, faith, humility, diligence, well-being, rest and satisfaction to minds exercised in the school of God..’we expect [to find] difficulties in [divine revelation]. They remind us of our own weakness and ignorance, and of Christ's power and wisdom. They send us to Him and to the Gospel” (Bridges, Pg V).

“In the day of prosperity be joyful, but in the day of adversity consider: God also hath set the one over against the other, to the end that man should find nothing after him” - Ecclesiastes 7:14 

This has often come to mind as of late concerning my own life under God's providence. I did not see myself where I am now, every day is a reminder of this, to thank God for every dispensation, and I can only simply ‘determine..not to know any thing among you, save Jesus Christ, and him crucified’ (1 Cor 2:2).

“Thus saith the LORD, Where is the bill of your mother's divorcement, whom I have put away? or which of my creditors is it to whom I have sold you? Behold, for your iniquities have ye sold yourselves, and for your transgressions is your mother put away” - Isaiah 50:1 

At best, nostalgia is a day dream of an imaginary promise and at worst distracts us from the beauty of today (Eccl 3:11). It's an all too familiar feeling. It's sweet, we get caught up in it, and we can easily linger in it. Before we know it; we find ourselves professing love for what once made us suffer, reasoning for suicide, and lusting after death.

Thank God for His love for His people as described in Isaiah; for it is only we that have forsaken and ignored God, and his promises, and rather it is God reclaiming us; a whore content in her own filth (Hos 2:23). Often I have been humbled in some of my previous attempts at the creative arts as I've become more aware of this tendency.

So let us, instead, look back, for recollection is crucial, and see that what made those fleeting moments meaningful, that often leave us more at a loss of words and images to describe, was both its place in God's providence and blessing of it (Eccl 6:2).

“Hast thou found honey? eat so much as is sufficient for thee, lest thou be filled therewith, and vomit it” - Proverbs 25:1 

This is balancing convictions, based upon the scriptures, and avoiding the temptation of a “cage stage” attitude. Has my desire been to further seek after a more consistent walk in the Lord (Ps 27:4) or has it been to appear holy (2 Tim 3:5, Luke 18:10-14)? This temptation is all too easy to fall prey to in discussion; especially those with differing views whether erroneous or correct (Prov 27:17).

“And there are also many other things which Jesus did, the which, if they should be written every one, I suppose that even the world itself could not contain the books that should be written. Amen” - John 21:25 

As I sit down to write and finish this, I am surrounded by books, and I continue to seek a better grasp of this. If for mere appearance or self righteousness (1 Cor 8:1); I have failed and these books are mere scraps of paper. Study is laborious and often frustrating; the true fruit therein is a better understanding of the grace of God, the mercies of Christ, the displays of providence attesting to the two, and our utter hopelessness without it.

“But these are written, that ye might believe that Jesus is the Christ, the Son of God; and that believing ye might have life through his name” - John 20:31 

Footnotes:

1 - All scriptural references are from the Authorized Version (AV); otherwise known as the King James Version (KJV) 

2 - Pritchard, David R. ed. (1994) The American Heritage Dictionary. (3rd Edition). Dell Publishing. pg. 623.

3 - Wisdom = experimental application of the truths of God [alternatively, seek the more thorough definition and its scriptural usage, under the heading entitled “Wisdom” in the Tyndale Bible Dictionary, 2001] 

4 - American Heritage Dictionary. pg 623 

5 - Specifically compare 12:13 with Deuteronomy 6:2 

6 - “Moral Philosophy Definition & Meaning.” Merriam-Webster, Merriam-Webster, www.merriam-webster.com/dictionary/moral%20philosophy. Accessed 13 Aug. 2024.

7 - Chisholm, Hugh, ed. (1911). "Summum Bonum" . Encyclopædia Britannica. Vol. 26 (11th ed.). Cambridge University Press. p. 81.

(See also Aquinas’ interaction with the concept as found in Cicero: Dinneen, M.F. (1909). "The Highest Good". In Herbermann, Charles (ed.). Catholic Encyclopedia. Vol. 6. New York: Robert Appleton Company and see the following article detailing how contemporary philosophy deals with this idea: Hursthouse, Rosalind and Glen Pettigrove, "Virtue Ethics", The Stanford Encyclopedia of Philosophy (Fall 2023 Edition), Edward N. Zalta & Uri Nodelman (eds.), URL = <https://plato.stanford.edu/archives/fall2023/entries/ethics-virtue/>. [Particularly sections 1, 2.1, 2.4, 3, and 4].) 

8 - Bridges, Charles. (1860). An Exposition of the Book of Ecclesiastes. Banner of Truth Trust (1960 reprint).

9 - or, as rendered in the KJV; “Preacher”.

10 - Metz, Thaddeus, "The Meaning of Life", The Stanford Encyclopedia of Philosophy (Fall 2023 Edition), Edward N. Zalta & Uri Nodelman (eds.), URL= <https://plato.stanford.edu/archives/fall2023/entries/life-meaning/>.

11 - Hills, Edward F., “The King James Version Defended”, (1956), Self-Published, [PDF File], accessed from https://archive.org/details/TheKingJamesVersionDefended/mode/1up [particularly Ch 2, sections 4 & 5]